My name is Alexandra Aileen Urzúa Urzúa , I was born in 1997 at
Rancagua, exactly Machalí. I had lived all my live there but the past year
(2015) I had to leave my city, home, family and all my friends to study in the
capital. And well, it was an important change in my life because I am only
daughter so I’m something like the “princess house”, and sorry, but I have the
best parents EVER!. That's why sometimes I say
“Maybe you see a girl, a simple girl but this girl has two parents and
these parents give me everything”. And I am not talking just about materials
things, They made a dreamer (by wishing things that seem “impossibles”) and a
Fighter ( To fight for those wishes). they have always made me feel very
lovely, they have made me a confident girl. That’s one of the reasons because
of the past year was so hard for me. I had to learn to live in another city
with another people and another life! .
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One of my book's pictures. |
The firsts months I was living with two
more girls, they were sweet but I really needed
my space. then, my parents realized
that I wasn’t happy and my grandfather
bought me an apartment so close from the University. That’s my home
today and as you can imagine, It is completely decorated with roses and well,
more roses.
I said that
I am from Rancagua, exactly Machalí and more exactly San Joaquín, in my village
I used to be something like an Icon because I was the kind of girl that like
travel, look good and make things different at the other girls of my village.
Well, this maybe sound ridiculous, but I always have felt that I was born for
something else, something important, that people remember my name. That’s the
reason because I decided to study Journalism.
I have always loved the Soccer (that’s one of
the thing that my dad love the most from me), I really prefer the national’s
soccer and I don’t know why but I do it. So I said “ Hey, I love soccer and I
am so boring of see men talking about soccer, I prefer to see girls who knows
about this sport and enjoy it. For example, me”.
As I said, I had lived all my life in the
same place and maybe that's the reason because of I had never could feel
"fine". I mean, I always say "This is not my place". My
friends always have been so “normals” (¿) ( whatever that it means), they just
feel OK just where they have been always that way, they just do what they have
to do, but never question “¿Why am I doing this?”, well, I always do it and
sometimes I can’t find an answer..
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Enjoying the beach! |
On my High school this was a trouble because
I used to see my classmates just did what they have to do and how it had to be,
they used to be very conformists and I didn’t like it. That wouldn’t have been
a problem but I just can’t pretend that I like something if it’s not. Maybe,
just maybe that was the reason why I had to get another High school so I pass
from “Liceo Comercial Diego Portales” to “Instituto San Andres” and well, I
have to say that the story wasn’t very different but here I get two of my three best friends.
That ‘s why I never regret of have being in that second school
Nowadays, I
live what I call “An American life”, I am a follower of The Kardashians, I love
Fashion and clothes and sports. On weekend I used to work (but I don’t see it
as a work it all) , just sometimes, modeling (but it will never be something
like the “Victoria’s secret Fashion show, even if I wish it..) . I used to be a
champion in the hip hop’s dancing, it was like a dream but I had to leave it
because of the University.
well as you can see and imagine, I do all of these consumerist and capitalist
things that I see on the Instagram of the
American’s Famous, you know, things like go to the Starbucks and take a
picture from it, and using the Social networks a lot. On my “free times” I go
to gym, ride a bike, run and just watch a lot of soccer on T.v . And yes, when
I say “free times” I refer to one or two hours at day.
Finally, I am a GIRL IN A BIG BIG WORLD TRYING TO FIND HER PLACE .
Maybe that’s the reason because of I like travel a lot, maybe I am just looking
for the place where I belong, I know that place is not just a dream, I’m sure
that it exists and if not, I guess than is my work make these dreams come true,
I know I can because as I said on the start, I am not just a dreamer, I am a
fighter and if I don’t have the tools then I will create it and if I don’t have
Wings, then I will learn to fly without them.
Pd: This Blogger is deddicated to all of that guys in the world who sometimes feel that they don't belong here, I mean, sometimes in the night they can't sleep just thinking about Why am I doing this? , Does This make me happy? Should I keep this lifestyle? Why? Why not? OMG! everybody have felt that way sometimes but don't worry cause you are not the only one and you are not alone. So in this blog I hope to help somebody who feels identified and together we find our place or what we really wanna do or be. And don't worry if the way seems difficult, don't forget that the best way is not always the easier.